Tuesday, January 29, 2013

How Much is Too Much

I seriously want to know, so please, please tell me. How much do you do? In an outside the house/work kind of way.

I am on Maren's school's board and I serve on four committees of the Board, which is two too many, so I know that at least. I go to church and I do churchy things, although I have eliminated a lot of my volunteer responsibility church-wise. I help with the girls' Girl Scout troop. I grocery shop for my grandparents. I'm in a bookclub. It doesn't sound like that much.

And yet, I am never home. Some of that is because I love to hang out at my mom's house and I have a hard time leaving. I know that. But, I really feel like I get in this pattern where I have something to do every night and I will never see my house again. I dread the first week of the month like the plague, because that is the week of all the things.

I feel overwhelmed and I'm not sure if I should be. What I want, more than just about anything else, is to have a schedule where running around until ten minutes before bedtime is the exception rather than the rule.

What I want is to cook at home. And clean before the kids are in bed. I want to catch up on my DVR and read curled up in my favorite chair. I want to reclaim my life.

But, I look at that list up there and I can't tell you what I want to get rid of. I want to be involved with my kids' stuff and I want to do churchy things and I'm not giving up bookclub until I'm a corpse. I keep running back into: it doesn't sound like that much.

So, what about it? What do you do? Help me feel less guilty for drawing some more lines.


Suze said...

I think that sounds like a LOT. I don't work for wages on a regular basis, and I'm busy enough. I go to my son's class once a week and I'm on the board of my daughter's preschool, which is a big commitment this year because we've been forced out of our space and have to find a new home. I could be busier, I guess, but finding childcare is such an expensive hassle that I'm loathe to find more ways to donate my time for free when I don't get paid for anything anyway. But that's my issue, not yours.
Pick whatever you like the least and give that up. Also, don't feel guilty for a second about it.

Jessi said...

I think childcare is one of the reasons I feel like I should be able to do everything. Since my mom is almost always willing to watch the girls, I don't really have cost or trouble with childcare. It's really just not being home that's bothering me. I've been on the Montessori board for four years and I had planned on two more, but I think it may be time to give it up.