I seriously want to know, so please, please tell me. How much do you do? In an outside the house/work kind of way.
I am on Maren's school's board and I serve on four committees of the Board, which is two too many, so I know that at least. I go to church and I do churchy things, although I have eliminated a lot of my volunteer responsibility church-wise. I help with the girls' Girl Scout troop. I grocery shop for my grandparents. I'm in a bookclub. It doesn't sound like that much.
And yet, I am never home. Some of that is because I love to hang out at my mom's house and I have a hard time leaving. I know that. But, I really feel like I get in this pattern where I have something to do every night and I will never see my house again. I dread the first week of the month like the plague, because that is the week of all the things.
I feel overwhelmed and I'm not sure if I should be. What I want, more than just about anything else, is to have a schedule where running around until ten minutes before bedtime is the exception rather than the rule.
What I want is to cook at home. And clean before the kids are in bed. I want to catch up on my DVR and read curled up in my favorite chair. I want to reclaim my life.
But, I look at that list up there and I can't tell you what I want to get rid of. I want to be involved with my kids' stuff and I want to do churchy things and I'm not giving up bookclub until I'm a corpse. I keep running back into: it doesn't sound like that much.
So, what about it? What do you do? Help me feel less guilty for drawing some more lines.